i could kill a pretty girl i could fucking kill a pretty girl
i have made too many drawings for boys. what do they do with my art? rip it up? keep it up? throw it away? ?????
actually no not really i'm not that okay every second of light and then i'm left with a sinking feeling of being alone and sad forever i hate my life i want it to end
i am so pretty wow
also if anyone on the internet actually finds this blog, i am okay. i am not as severely depressed as i sound on here i am actually really okay.
i really wish ahg i really am so uncomfortable around guys i don t like the idea of a gu y wantint to sleep with me i dont like the idea of a guy wanting to touch me i dont like the idea of a guy thinking i'm cute i dont like the idea of touching someone else i dont like the idea of someone else touching me i dont like the idea of someone thinking about me like that i am no longer a girl i am no longer a girl i am no longer a girl i am a doll i am a mannequin doll i am a mannequin doll
when i was in high school we did this song analysis essay and some girl in my class did one of my songs (horribly) but if anyone ever does an essay or presentation on one of my songs again and sends it to me i would like flip biscuits idk is that an expression?
sorry, that last post. i just woke up then. i thought it was funny to make fun of someone. i'm sorry. my favorite album doesnt even exist. hhellp
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i am going to turn my fucking life in the right direction
i am so tired and i've lost a lot of interest in my life
is it normal to sit on your couch for 7 hours trying to get through your homework and keeping yourself from eating until you finish it because you don't deserve to eat until you become less of a failure
not a day goes by that i dont cry. i feel so sad all of the time. i feel numb and stuck. i can't get out of my head. i feel dumb and inexperienced and like my life is worth less than a penny. my head hurts. and i don't know what to do. i wish i could start again.
dealing with the crippling thoughts of being a failure
this is me after crying after taking a math exam
i tried so hard
lol
listening to a lot of mitski and lana means i must be sad
i thought this was all invisible
slime : (
commedian is the least attractive profession you can have as a man
taylor swift has become a threat to masculinity
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i need to stop having crushes on drummers
i am so sad all i've been able to think about is how happy i had been the past couple of months and now ive lost interest in everything and i dont want to be anyone and death has softer words than i tell myself
i've stopped eating and started crying a lot. i broke so many blood vessels in my face. i am covered in broken blood vessels.
i'm too cool for you anyways
i love my friends i love my friends more than anything. today was the best day ever.
i painted my nails and drew a picture and thought about a boy
we found a home
haha 12:06 am
i freaked out a lot today and decided that i should study physics.
but i think im getting my sense back
we wanted to kill him, but he was already dead. i wish i could melt.
on my way to trader joes for the first time in 19 years.
is this me
